caved in or not?
After much unfocused fuming and more focused discussion with my therapist, SBL and myself - I decided that I should call St. Peter. It went immediately to machine and I was so tempted to run away - hang up and run away. But, I braved the message and left one too. It was simple and friendly (i think) -I said that I just wondered how his weekend was and asked him to give me a call when he got a chance.
I thought calling would make me feel worse, but not true. I feel lighter. Hopefully that feeling will last regardless of what happens because I do not want another day like today...
posted by Professor Seahorse @ 7/27/2005 03:16:00 AM
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Well, I felt better after I called but had terrible dreams last night. Dreams that involved St. Peter fooling around with a college friend of mine while they both ignored me. Crazy bad dreams. Then I work up in a panic thinking that maybe St. Peter had died - I swear, that is going through my head. At this point, part of me is anxious simply because hearing nothing is so so so wierd..
I hope he is ok. that bastard.
it's good that you feel better that you called. i agree with sbl that you broke up in your head and that the lack of communication may be both of you, not just him. remember, you are currently looking around the corner despite your romantic moments with St. Peter, and you don't know how that is manifesting to him. i would try to let it go for a while, all this analysis probably contributes to your dating anxiety
What dating anxiety?
r u 4 real? :)
I see - you were referring to the bad dreams. I guess that qualifies as anxiety ;)
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