Not too shy...

to admit that I spent much of my weekend with imPerfect. Although I also admit that it is raising questions that are becoming harder to suppress. Our time together is really, really satisfying and fun, actually, and as soon as I find myself in his company, I decide that I'd rather not force any conversation regarding what the hell we are doing. What he hell are we doing? Part of me thinks it could be one of two things:

(1) he has re-thought our last break up and is, in his own way, trying me on again for size - seeing if I can somehow fit into his slightly angst-ridden-i'm-just-about-to-produce-my-thesis life.

OR

(2) he misses having dr. love around for various reasons (insert reasons here) and she is just what he needs right now (stress on the *right now*).

The problem is that, for some reason, not knowing what MY expectations of him should be is keeping me from evaluating the relationship for myself. Not sure if that makes sense to anyone. Basically, if the answer is (2), then I'll walk away and, probably be annoyed at him for awhile and then get over it because I am not letting myself get wrapped up. However, if the answer is (1), then all of a sudden we are on equal footing - and I can try him on for size as well.

I figure if the answer is (2), he'll freak out again in a week or two and we'll have another painful (painful 'cause it is cliche not 'cause it'll hurt - although it will, of course). If the answer is (1) , however, I think we'll be in the same place in a few weeks.

So I see two issues here:
(1) Why do I need to know where he is at to figure out where I am?
(2) How to bring this up, if at all, and, if so, when?

If love is supposed to be easy, then this ain't love, baby!