Trouble

an I hung out again last night. I had decided before he arrived that it would be good to spend as much time together as possible to gain some clarity on my feelings. I figure if this is a fleeting crush, on either of our parts, then a little time will reveal that. If it is not, then a little time will also help to solidify the desire. As soon as he walked into my apartment last night, I knew the attraction was growing. I never really thought Trouble was particulary attractive but as I get to know him, he is growing on me. That same effect has happened to me several times in my past and it has always been a good sign.

I feel at ease with him. I feel like I can be myself and, most importantly, his presence somehow brings out the calm-me more than the high-strung-me. He is a very gentle man but also appears to have a very strong core. He is not afraid to express himself.

I went back and forth many times last night between thinking this could work and feeling doubtful of that. I am hoping he (not him directly, but getting to know him better) will convince me either way. I am being good in the meantime, not even a kiss goodnight....